Watching other people have sex while you are trying to have sex is such a disconnected dysfunctional way to make love.
There you are, supposedly there to have sex with him, and he is not into you so much but into the porn, using you as nothing more than a vessel to deposit his sperm. No wonder you feel cheap and unloved.
I believe porn is normal for most men to be interested in viewing. But, to bring that smut into your bedroom is disgusting as far as I am concerned.
You do not like it, so refuse to partake in such activity.
My boyfriend watched a ton of porn. We watched some porn together and I was disgusted by it because it is just nasty to see actors whooping it up for the cameras. They are actors, just like every other movie that was ever filmed. There is a script to follow, cameras, a stage set, microphones, lights....all in a cold warehouse. It is all staged and there is nothing about it that is natural or real because it is 100% acting. Who wants THAT in their bedroom?
So, fast forward after my wedding. He got up every morning to jerk off to porn. Then he began doing it at night. The final straw was when our young children wanted to open Christmas gifts on Christmas morning, but he was too busy stroking it, and he did not want us to begin Christmas gifts without him....so we had to wait. Disgusting, if you ask me.
Trust me, this is who he is and he is not going to change for you. My situation with my guy began in 1977, had children in the late 1980's and divorced him in the late 1990's. Here we are 2017 and the guy is happy to be living alone and still, to this day, is addicted to pornography.
If you are not happy with your fiancé's porn habits now, you will not be happy with them ever. And, if you marry him, you have NO RIGHT to complain because you knew going into the marriage that he loves porn.
Know this: his porn habits have NOTHING to do with you. This is ALL about him and his desires to have disconnected sexual arousal. The guy is unable to connect with you on an intimate level. The odds are that he does not have a good relationship with his mother. Men who would rather watch porn while having sex rather than be alone with his fiancée has serious issues.
Now you know. Can you live with this forever? Can you deal with feeling like you are not good enough, worthy enough, sexy enough and just plain enough for him? Can you live with feeling like you are inadequate? Do you feel like you have to or will want to compete with porn stars?
When a man CHOOSES to watch porn while having sex, then YES, he likes porn more than you!!